I wasn't lying, then. [ he sighs, pouring batter for the next waffle. ] Ask me again, you'd get a different answer. I was gearing up to kill someone, Peter. It was Fowler all over again, but...

[ but this time peter wasn't there to stop him, and all the influences who stepped into the void peter left-- the irenes and keller, then-- only encouraged his thirst for vengeance, if not his methods with the first two. he left because he didn't know how to pull back, and not pulling back meant a choice that couldn't be undone. ] I decided I'd take some time, wander. See if that was what I really wanted, or if I made a promise in the heat of the moment and it wasn't worth the cost.

[ unspoken, but there: i didn't want to become someone you would hate, even without you here. ]

It didn't go like I thought it would. [ his lips quirk, humorlessly. ] I changed.