[ because somewhere in there making peter happy-- living up to his expectations-- became important to neal, more than he thought anyone's want but his own ever would be. ]
Spock says it's-- that whatever Himself did to me, out there? I can't process it. [ he taps the side of his head, sighs. ] Limited capacity of the human brain, something like that. When I first wandered back in there was hypothermia to deal with, starvation... I was raving, but they didn't think much of it.
[ he swallows, hard. ] I did it again, later. After I was fine. And I had no idea it was me-- thought it was a prank, someone screwing with my reputation for messing around on the network.
[ he looks down at his hands, flexes the fingers. ] Spock said no. And I draw things, Peter, things I don't remember putting down on paper. It's like I'm... me, and then I'm just gone. I don't know where I go.
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[ because somewhere in there making peter happy-- living up to his expectations-- became important to neal, more than he thought anyone's want but his own ever would be. ]
Spock says it's-- that whatever Himself did to me, out there? I can't process it. [ he taps the side of his head, sighs. ] Limited capacity of the human brain, something like that. When I first wandered back in there was hypothermia to deal with, starvation... I was raving, but they didn't think much of it.
[ he swallows, hard. ] I did it again, later. After I was fine. And I had no idea it was me-- thought it was a prank, someone screwing with my reputation for messing around on the network.
[ he looks down at his hands, flexes the fingers. ] Spock said no. And I draw things, Peter, things I don't remember putting down on paper. It's like I'm... me, and then I'm just gone. I don't know where I go.