[ the snap back is instinctive, more cornered dog terrified than truly angry. he's never truly wanted to imagine old age; the loss of faculty, being vulnerable. confused, weak.
he hates what this ship has turned him into, sometimes. ]
But no, it's just-- it feels like it's just always there.
[ and that the sanity is the mask now, but some thoughts are too terrible to bear said aloud. ]
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[ the snap back is instinctive, more cornered dog terrified than truly angry. he's never truly wanted to imagine old age; the loss of faculty, being vulnerable. confused, weak.
he hates what this ship has turned him into, sometimes. ]
But no, it's just-- it feels like it's just always there.
[ and that the sanity is the mask now, but some thoughts are too terrible to bear said aloud. ]