Maybe I can. But I just don't want to; haven't you realised?
[ Maybe she hasn't, but neither has he. He has never said this out loud before; not once. It's so much easier for him to try to believe that he's incapable of getting out of bed, to make excuses so that he might believe he can't, then to realise that he's just a selfish, useless bastard in the end and he won't.
Roy takes a long, shuddering breath, closing his eyes. His hand gropes at the blankets, and he finds the vial of medicine again, staring at it.
The first thing Alexandria has ever gotten him. Her first attempt at trying to help him die, unwitting though it is. The first time he made use of and lied to her. ]
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[ Maybe she hasn't, but neither has he. He has never said this out loud before; not once. It's so much easier for him to try to believe that he's incapable of getting out of bed, to make excuses so that he might believe he can't, then to realise that he's just a selfish, useless bastard in the end and he won't.
Roy takes a long, shuddering breath, closing his eyes. His hand gropes at the blankets, and he finds the vial of medicine again, staring at it.
The first thing Alexandria has ever gotten him. Her first attempt at trying to help him die, unwitting though it is. The first time he made use of and lied to her. ]