"We... both said and did some pretty shitty things back then. Don't know what she's doin' with it now, but I've learned to live with that."

For years he had lived in a cell going back and forth with it all. Who was to blame and who wasn't. At the time, Carol really did fault Murphy. Told him that what happened to their son was his fault, that he wasn't a good enough father to have been there when Charlie needed him most. For years, he believed her.

Spend enough time with nothing but silence and your thoughts, you either come to terms with some things or you let it eat you alive.

Suppose this is what feel-good assholes would call personal growth or some shit.