Honestly, he doesn't know what to say, either. He feels like shit. He feels broken. Dean had been there for a better part of a year in Wonderland, and to have him back for even just a couple months should feel fortunate, but truthfully, that extra time just makes this separation all that much harder.

John tries to tell himself this isn't the end — this isn't their end — and that everything endures, but he's got not idea what the future holds from here. He can't even begin to predict it.

Finally what Cat says rattles around in his brain and he nods. "Yeah, fine." Because she'll probably bolt if he answers any other way, anyway.