[ and maybe his grin drops a little - not completely, because he's still reveling in the whole fact he knows and she seems so surprised by it (james loves throwing lily off, if he can), but enough. it's just a smidge disheartening to thinking that they're back to before term. that she doesn't remember their whole last semester. some of his favorite memories with her were from there, and if she hasn't lived through them yet, it's literally as if it's just all in his head.
he shrugs, though, at her comments. ]
Doesn't really matter much, does it? [ and no, he's not talking about her inability to see him like that, and before she can chime in, he continues. ] I mean the dates. You might've agreed to them and as far as I could tell, enjoyed them, when I'm from; but if you haven't had them yet... they might as well have never happened.
[ now it's james' turn to turn away, suddenly very very interested in the trees around them. and yeah, okay. james isn't so self-centered and horrible that he doesn't recognize a lot of how he treated (sometimes still wishes he did treat) snape was a little horrid, but it gets downplayed by how horrid he is as a person, in his mind. but he knows, and he knows it bothers lily more than anything, and then it turns around and bothers him that she's still seeing him like that. he might not have changed drastically, but the fact she'd given him a chance made him think he'd changed enough. and now they're basically back to square one - or one and a half, at least. ]
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[ and maybe his grin drops a little - not completely, because he's still reveling in the whole fact he knows and she seems so surprised by it (james loves throwing lily off, if he can), but enough. it's just a smidge disheartening to thinking that they're back to before term. that she doesn't remember their whole last semester. some of his favorite memories with her were from there, and if she hasn't lived through them yet, it's literally as if it's just all in his head.
he shrugs, though, at her comments. ]
Doesn't really matter much, does it? [ and no, he's not talking about her inability to see him like that, and before she can chime in, he continues. ] I mean the dates. You might've agreed to them and as far as I could tell, enjoyed them, when I'm from; but if you haven't had them yet... they might as well have never happened.
[ now it's james' turn to turn away, suddenly very very interested in the trees around them. and yeah, okay. james isn't so self-centered and horrible that he doesn't recognize a lot of how he treated (sometimes still wishes he did treat) snape was a little horrid, but it gets downplayed by how horrid he is as a person, in his mind. but he knows, and he knows it bothers lily more than anything, and then it turns around and bothers him that she's still seeing him like that. he might not have changed drastically, but the fact she'd given him a chance made him think he'd changed enough. and now they're basically back to square one - or one and a half, at least. ]
Guess I just have to start over again.