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[wiped]

CHARACTERS: derek, thomas and jax plus special guests.
LOCATION: all over!!
WARNINGS: will update as needed.
SUMMARY: memeories and othe fun overlapping sensations.
NOTES: planned shenanigans for memory leaks will go in this entry. i am happy to plan others, just pp/pm me!

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[better]

[She's heard things, but she knows that eventually she'll know things for herself. It brings her to the thing she knows is from Derek.]

Did she know? I mean - when I was here before, did anyone tell me that I was going to die?

I saw the two of you talking. From when she was here on the ship... when I was here.

[altercate]

[ it's complicated. erica talks like it's someone else, and derek can at least understand that. stiles had done it too, referred to his prior visits like he'd been a separate person at the time. derek doesn't have the high ground to knock anyone else's coping mechanisms. ]

The first time, we didn't know.

[ and if they had, they couldn't have stopped it. derek needs to tell himself that, or the guilt would eat him alive. ]

She knew, the second time.

[ surprisingly, not any easier. and all the more difficult when she'd gone. ]

[better]

[It feels weird to think of it as herself when she can't even remember it. When it's happened twice and all of those memories are just gone. When her time has overlapped and been repeated as far as from when she arrived there. It's easier and yet at the same time still difficult.]

Did someone tell her... like how Allison told me? [Maybe she just needs to find things to relate to. Maybe if she knows more, it'll unlock those memories. Maybe they're trapped inside her already and she just can't find them.]

[altercate]

We didn't have to. We didn't know either, the first time.

[ and allison had known when she'd arrived as well. fielding the conversation about impending death and his own inability to prevent them wasn't something derek had prepared for. he'd known people aboard the ship who'd had to deal with it, but it hadn't touched him. ]