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[last_ofthe_jedi]

CHARACTERS: Luke Skywalker and Biggs Darklighter
LOCATION: Their room, then one of the holodecks
WARNINGS: Shmoopiness, awkwardness, more cute than you can shake a stick at, dumb boys being dumb, shenanigans; EDIT: Things are becoming a bit intimate, though if it comes to it we'll do a fade-to-black.
SUMMARY: Now that they're mostly recovered from the asshole nanites Luke and Biggs have some things to talk about like how much they want to rip each others' clothes off and decide the holodecks are a good place to talk. Yes, talk.
NOTES: Stalk at will but I release myself of all responsibility for dental bills.


Aside from some residual weakness left over from having lost so much weight Luke's feeling back to his old self, though he's been eating like a bantha since the last jump. Biggs, on the other hand... well, Luke's kept a close watch on him. They said there'd be pain while his body was mending itself. Luke hopes his concern hasn't been annoying but he's found it difficult to keep from checking up on him every five minutes.

On top of that Luke's held a certain shyness around Biggs ever since they confessed their feelings to each other. He's never felt like this around him before. He's afraid to get too close for fear of going about things the wrong way, whatever that might be. Part of him still doubts what Biggs said.

He's been careful to allow Biggs plenty of time to recover but his uncertainty might be starting to show. He's growing restless and anxious and even a bit impatient. He's sitting on his bed across the room from Biggs after another shift in the gunnery. After a minute of mulling over a daring thought or two Luke decides that it's time for initiative.

"We need a break."

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[hisowndream]

Biggs' grin widens to see Luke blushing, laughing until he was red in the face at his own adolescent feelings. This was going to be good. "How could I forget?" He muses. It had been a momentous day for him, as well; not only because he had watched Luke succeed, but because it had been the day he'd discovered he had made himself a true friend for what might have been the second time in his life. "Of course I remember. We spent the night under the bantha pelt.." A moment passes as Biggs reflects on the memory and on what he's said. He arches an eyebrow at Luke, wondering if this is going in the direction he suspects.

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"Yeah we did." Luke chuckles at the memory. "That thing always smelled funny."

"Anyway, uh..." he bites his lip, "I had a dream that night." He glances at Biggs' face to gauge his reaction. He's already gotten the feeling that Biggs knows where this is going with that arched eyebrow. "It was about you. And me." He purses his lips and nods slowly, smirking mischievously at Biggs.

"At first I thought it was really happening because it took place right there in the loft. I woke up when you climbed on top of me-- and kissed me... and then disappeared under the pelt and did other things." His grin widens. "It wasn't until I actually woke up that I realized it had all been a dream." He pauses and chuckles shyly. "And then I had to change my pants while you were still asleep."

"I know I had feelings for you even before that but-- well, you can probably imagine that denying things really wasn't an option anymore."

[hisowndream]

Biggs raises both of his eyebrows when the dream is first mentioned - and begins laughing to himself before Luke finishes the story. He has some vivid memories, himself, about the first night he'd spent with Luke: the temperature drop as the suns set, Luke's expression when he gave Biggs his answer, settling in for the night next to his then best friend - and all this time, he'd had no idea what was really going on with the boy laying next to him. He's surprised, but accepts adolescent Luke's desire for him as a compliment. As his laughter dies down, he shakes his head in disbelief. "...And you managed to hold on to that for five years?!" That was some dedication to a secret. They both had their reasons, of course, so Biggs won't tease him any harder - at least, in regards to his silence. His smile never faltering, and Biggs disentangles himself only to lean over Luke, pinning him against the 'grass.' He looks him in the eye, mirroring his mischievous look. He cannot push himself too far, but it feels good just to be like this. "This must be a dream come true for you, then."

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Luke rolls his eyes. "Biggs, I was terrified. And you weren't exactly any help, either!" He's probably feeling a little more defensive than he needs to be, but before he can defend himself further he's being pushed over onto his back. Biggs' smirking face is right above him and most of his body weight is pressing him pleasantly into the floor. If he was going to say anything else he's completely forgotten what it was.

If Biggs isn't really ready yet for anything too aerobic this might have been a bad decision. Luke's eyes have glazed over and his pulse has already sped up, rushing blood quite quickly and efficiently to places that need it a little more than usual. This is all it takes to get him brain-numbingly turned on, potentially living out the events of a wet dream, memories of all of those fantasies and desires that nearly drove him crazy for years, and Biggs' take-control attitude. Luke has just discovered some things about himself.

Finally he recovers enough to get out a few words though he's somewhat breathless. "You have no idea. Biggs..." His hands have moved to Biggs' hips as if to hold him in place and he licks his lips. "... I've been waiting five years. Don't you dare tease me."

[hisowndream]

Biggs can't help but be pleased to have cut off Luke's train of thought (and there was not much left to say on the subject, anyway; they had both had their reasons). Luke's response beneath him is incredibly satisfying - No, he may not have acted with consideration for his health, but it was entirely worth it to feel Luke react from his touch. It would almost be cruel to just leave him like this, even if he would be listening to Luke by backing off now.

And indeed, Biggs rarely ever backs away from something he wants, but he can recognize this isn't the time or place; not yet. He will lean in, pressing them even closer together, and steal a kiss from Luke before sitting back up, a triumphant grin spreading across his face. "...Alright. It will be something to look forward to."

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For a minute Luke just stares back at Biggs with a mixture of mild resentment and unmistakable desire. Then he's being kissed and all the ill feelings vanish in an instant, letting a wide grin follow the kiss. It's amazing (and a little unfair) how Biggs can just turn his mood right around like that. Not that Luke was actually upset with him but being teased like that left him with quite a bit of physical frustration.

As Biggs sits up Luke follows suit, propping himself up on his hands with his arms out behind him. He tilts his head at Biggs and ponders what he just said, a promise of even more once he's feeling better. The idea of being even more intimate with Biggs is arousing yes, but it also makes him incredibly nervous. Luke's only been with one other person before, it was a long time ago, it was a girl, and frankly... it was bad.

Luke knows Biggs is more experienced than he is but he wonders how much more, and specifically, in what ways. It might prove to be important later. He'd thought of asking this question before but he'd never really had the opportunity until now.

"Biggs... have you ever-- how long have you known that... that you- you're interested in other guys?" His face is already a bit red from a minute ago so it doesn't change much.

[hisowndream]

The sudden question takes Biggs by surprise - and in all honesty, it was one he had hoped Luke wouldn't ask. Biggs didn't like others to think, Luke especially, that his self-assured nature and grasp on his identity had lapses like anyone else. But it was a fair question, and Biggs is pensive a moment, wondering how best to answer.

"...Well, I've always been attracted to you. Of course, I didn't realize it until recently..." There was a lot of self-reflection to be had after discovering his appreciation for Luke's eyes and his figure had always been something more than friendly affection. He searches himself for another instance, a time he'd found a man other than Luke attractive, but can't come up with a specific answer. He's certain there was one, for his newfound interests weren't a shock, but the memory eludes him. He was a driven person, and sat comfortably at the very top of his class in the Academy - he did not spend his military career allowing his eyes to wander to the other men. The only time post-Tatooine he'd let another person complicate his thoughts was during the short period he'd spent resenting Hobbie over a misunderstanding, but that was something different. "I guess I didn't 'know'. You were the person I was interested in at home, and when I left, I was so focused on my training that it never crossed my mind. After the mutiny, Dantels showed interest in me, so I pursued her." It's a bit awkward to mention his ill-fated date to Luke, as it's the first time bringing her up since he'd arrived, but exes came and went and he and Luke had a more intimate relationship, now. There was no reason to be jealous.

"...So, that makes you the first," he chuckles, amused at his own answer. It wasn't the confident response Luke may have been looking for, but it is an honest one, and he feels better for sharing it. In spite of their experiences, they were still young men, with room left to make new discoveries about themselves.

[last_ofthe_jedi]

It's especially pleasing to Luke to hear more detail about Biggs' feelings for him, particularly in reminding him that they'd always been there. Even the mention of Dantels, someone Biggs had apparently dated doesn't bother him. He hadn't heard mention of her until now so naturally it's a bit of a surprise, but Luke decides that he'd rather not hear any more about Biggs' past relationships so he leaves it alone.

He still smiles smugly at the knowledge of how deeply Biggs' feelings are for him and just how long they've actually been there. It becomes a bit of an amused smirk when Biggs admits his inexperience with other men. Luke's not amused at the fact of it, simply that Biggs seems a bit self-conscious about it. It isn't often that Luke gets a glimpse of his vulnerable side but he feels, as Biggs' lover, that he deserves an occasional glance.

Luke tilts his head a bit back and to the side, his cheek resting against his shoulder, and regards Biggs with an admiring look. He enjoys seeing his vulnerable side as a matter of fact, and he hopes Biggs can tell.

True, Luke had actually been curious about whether or not Biggs would know how to... go about things when the time came, but he's not displeased with this answer either. It just means they'll learn together.

"No need to look so embarrassed about it. You've been the only one for me so far. Uh..." he glances towards the floor in a moment of his own mild embarrassment, "in more ways than one." He's not sure how closely Biggs had paid attention to his romantic endeavors but there was a distinctive lack of dating in Luke's early years... or at any point in his life. Just being in a relationship is new to him let alone the things that come with it.

"I guess, um... well, there's definitely someone we could always ask for advice," he offers with a crooked half-smile. The person he's referring to is likely obvious.

[hisowndream]

The meaning behind Luke's admiring gaze is not lost on Biggs. He almost tells him not to get used to it, that it was one time he'd misunderstood himself in a lifetime of confidence, but the truth was that it was sometimes exhausting to make himself seem faultless. His resolute personality might be something Luke loved about him, but he was human, and Luke had surely seen his character tested more times aboard this ship than in most of the years they had spent together at home. The more of his true self Luke saw, the more intimate their relationship became, and that was fine with him.

He seems to light right back up when Luke speaks, pleased to have been his one and only partner. He'd always known, but especially now, Luke's inexperience was somehow endearing. "Jack, right? That wouldn't be a bad idea..." They had come a long way since their awkward meeting in the pool, and Biggs knew that he and his husband were people they could trust.

[last_ofthe_jedi]

Luke's pretty certain that he's either witnessed or been personally responsible for almost all of Biggs' brief moments of vulnerability within the last five years, except of course when he was away at the academy. He would know better than to expect it to never happen again. He just keeps on grinning knowingly.

"Good. Then we have our tasks for the next week or two. We'll do some research and you--" Luke scoots forward and presses his hands to Biggs' shoulders, attempting to guide him back down onto the floor so that they can spend a bit more time in each others' arms, "-- focus on getting better. Once you do I think we could make a night in here really spectacular."

Luke's faced towards the floor so he doesn't see it initially but above them the artificial sky has turned grey and light raindrops begin to fall. It's not actual water so they're in no danger of getting uncomfortably drenched but the sound and the mist in the air make it seem very real.

[hisowndream]

"Mm, I like the sound of that." Biggs happily follows Luke's lead and lays back down next to him, smiling contentedly. He was growing tired, but this room (and Luke's presence) relaxed him and made it a comfortable drowsiness.

As Biggs rolls over, his eyes turn up towards the sky: his lips part in surprise from what he finds there. He blinks reflexively as the first of the artificial rain is drawn towards the ground, and soon after a light and steady pour follows them. A fine mist has fallen cool on Biggs' skin, and his voice is soft and filled with wonder. "Luke..." This was an impossible sight at home, and in spite of his travels, one that he still has never seen.

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The idea of spending a romantic night in here with Biggs makes Luke grin in gleeful anticipation and he hovers briefly over him for a moment, watching his face. He sees Biggs' features change and then Luke turns to follow his gaze up to the sky.

The sight makes his jaw drop. In the few days he'd spent on Yavin IV the jungle was damp and there was occasionally mist but Luke has also never seen real rain like this. Just the sound by itself is mesmerizing. Thousands of drops landing on leaves in the forest nearby make it so real, and the holodeck has even generated the smell of fresh rain on the ground.

For several moments Luke is caught leaning back on one elbow and staring up at the sky, taking it all in. Finally he decides that he could stay in here forever and he settles down tightly against Biggs' side, head on his shoulder, and watches the rain fall all around them.

Quietly, he mutters, "You just let me know when you want to go back." There's a smile in his voice, though, to indicate that he's slightly joking. The sight is so beautiful, both the scene and Biggs resting contentedly next to him, that he'd be perfectly happy staying here for the rest of the day.