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CHARACTERS: Crane and EVERYONE.
LOCATION: Crane's room
WARNINGS: Crazy
SUMMARY: Crane's door is open for all of his patients.
NOTES: I finally decided I'd throw up a log. TELL HIM YOUR PROBLEMS. PLEASE. EVERYONE.

[ Throughout the day, Crane's door is open. If you decide to walk in you'll see him with a pen and paper, waiting expectantly. He's hear to help your problems, Tranquility. He's here as a shoulder to cry on. ]

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It's alright, Asato. I'm here to help.

[ A pause. ]

I think a large portion of your lack of self-confidence comes with your cultural background. It seems to be that because your father was from a different tribe others treated you differently, and you feel like you don't deserve it when people treat you the same way they would treat others.

I don't deserve it.

[He doesn't see that as a problem; he sees that as an established fact with a perfectly reasonable, acceptable explanation. If his father were from a different tribe--any other tribe--then things might not be so severe, but a Meigi, of all possible things...]

There's a lot of bad blood in the Meigi. It's not supposed to be with others, because--is it okay to tell you? I'm a little afraid to.

Are you aware of the Hippocratic oath? It's what doctors like me have to swear before we're able to help other people.

"I will respect the privacy of my patients, for their problems are not disclosed to me that the world may know" is one of them. Whatever you say never leaves this room, so don't be worried. I'm not allowed to judge.

[He listens and thinks about that for a minute or so, then nods.]

When I was born, I was different from the others. [No elaboration.] I don't know why for sure, but it's probably because of my father. The Meigi worship demons, so there are a lot of things in their blood that shouldn't spread.

Worship is not the same thing as actually bei--

[ No.

Crane tilts his head to the side. Asato--Asato has become interesting. ]

Unless you are part demon?

[ And how delightful will that be when the time comes. ]

[He's not sure how to answer that. Neither of his parents were supernatural, but for generations something had been coursing through the Meigi that should never spread outside their small, war-like tribe. Something that devil-pacts and rituals brought in, and which festered in their midst. Something that was passed from his father to him, and reacted with Kiran blood in all the worst possible ways.

He bites his lower lip for a while before answering.]

It's the blood. That's where it's hiding.

Your demon.

Can you feel it? Does it course through your veins?

[ No, not very professional. But this has Crane excited. ]

I feel it, sometimes.

[He puts a hand on his fore-arm, clasping hard, nails pressing against tan skin.]

I get upset, and angry. That's when it's the worst.

[ Crane is leaning forward, and if you look carefully, he's smiling, excited. A tongue darts out to lick his lips and he nods to himself, pretending to be kind. Caring.

He wants nothing more than to see that demon, unleash it on the entire ship. ]

Scared?

Yeah. Not for me, though. I'm afraid it'll hurt someone--I'll hurt someone I care about.

[He's not sure why Crane is smiling like this, but he keeps up the cautious trust unless given a reason to stop believing he's trustworthy. It's not a huge secret, after all. His entire tribe knows about this; it's why they rallied to kill him so often when he was a child.]

Well.

[ Crane has gathered enough information. Especially with this individual. ]

Asato, if I may suggest frequent visits to me in the future? It's impossible to cover everything in one session but I'd like if you could do something for me--homework, of sorts.

Ah--of course. Yes. I'll do that.

[His nod is uncertain, but it's there.]

What should I do?

I want you to write an account of everything you do that makes you happy each day for a week. And once that week is passed, come see me. I have a few theories I'd like to test.

I can do that.

[Yeah, he can do that easily. In fact, the list is easy to predict: flowers, food, Konoe. Belly-rubs and ear-scratches. Simple little things.]

Then, I'll see you again in a week? I hope what I write is helpful.

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