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ᴄʟᴀʀᴋᴇ ❝ ᴘʀɪɴᴄᴇss ❞ ɢʀɪғғɪɴ ([personal profile] romancekiller) wrote in [community profile] ataraxionlogs2015-02-14 04:49 pm

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CHARACTERS: Clarke Griffin, Raven Reyes, Bellamy Blake
LOCATION: Engineering and the bar!
WARNINGS: tba for now
SUMMARY: Clarke finally decides to talk with Raven now that she is canon updated a few days after the jump; just over a week later Bellamy drags Clarke out of her room to get drunk as a distraction.

[ooc; see starters within]
regulatingpressure: (❝ in case you thought you're special ❞)

literally forever late

[personal profile] regulatingpressure 2015-02-23 02:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[ raven doesn't have to answer. honestly, she's got half a mind to leave clarke out there - everyone's favorite homicidal princess would probably give up long before the next shift's engineers show up and realize she needs past the department-locked doors into engineering proper.

but she realizes, with a grudging exhale through her nose, that stranding clarke out there just plain isn't an option. so if clarke's still even remotely hanging around in about thirty seconds, an unobtrusive door slides open off to the right, and there's raven, leaning against the doorway looking equal parts wary and unimpressed. no hello, no anything. she's showing her face, and that's gonna have to be good enough.
]
regulatingpressure: (❝ they're not dying ❞)

[personal profile] regulatingpressure 2015-02-27 11:35 am (UTC)(link)
[ sure she would've. raven has no doubt clarke would've waited there all night if she had to. after all, that's what raven did when clarke escaped mt. weather. except in that case, she was waiting for a friend. in this case, clarke's waiting for the only surviving family of the guy she murdered.

despite that, raven listens to what clarke has to say - and as much as she wishes she could find that white-hot fury she held for clarke a month ago, it's died down by now to a dull ache and raven can't quite find it in her to fight.
]

I can't take a break, [ she says, but when she backs up out of the doorway, it's held open with a hand for clarke to follow her through. ]
regulatingpressure: (20)

[personal profile] regulatingpressure 2015-03-08 12:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[ by the time clarke's got her whole spiel out, raven's settled back into her chair at the consoles. clarke can keep on standing, or claim one of the various chairs in the general vicinity - it's not like anyone's coming back for them anytime soon.

and here and now, in the face of the apology, raven wants to find a way to be pissed off at a clarke who does know what she did instead of some innocent clueless clarke who just princess'd into this mess secondhand, but the fact stands that she pretty much wasted all her piss and hellfire in that first bout of explosive anger and the quiet seething over the weeks to follow.

so she swallows hard, jaw setting and brow furrowing as she shakes her head just barely.
] Stupid asshole did it to himself. [ it's how she's supposed to feel, she knows. that's the objective explanation behind it, but now that she's run out of steam over blaming clarke, the only one she's got left to blame is herself. ]
regulatingpressure: (❝ they're not dying ❞)

[personal profile] regulatingpressure 2015-03-20 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
I'm still pissed at you, don't get me wrong. [ because when clarke says it like that, raven balks a little at letting her off the hook completely. the fact stands, though... ] You didn't ask him to do that. Any of it. Not much traction for holding a grudge.
regulatingpressure: (❝ the way he loves you ❞)

[personal profile] regulatingpressure 2015-04-15 10:54 am (UTC)(link)
Which makes you reckless and kind of an idiot, but I'd say that's a hell of a lot better than being a murderer, wouldn't you? [ because clarke's not a murderer. raven wanted to believe she is, but then she'd have to believe finn was too. this is the lesser evil, as far as she can tell so far. ]
unguard: (leaving a legacy of tell me to)

[personal profile] unguard 2015-02-19 01:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He knows something's wrong with Clarke. He knew it from the first couple of minutes of conversation in the locker room, and the signs only became more glaringly obvious as their week wore on. He kept it to himself at first, pursed lips and a respectful distance to allow her time to grieve for Finn. Made all the worse, of course, because her damn boyfriend picked this jump to disappear on. Not to speak ill of the dead, but it has all of Finn's typical tact and timing even if he wasn't directly to blame.

Days pass, though, and Clarke shows little sign of improvement. It strikes Bellamy rather suddenly that with Raven alienated and Jasper so far behind, he's literally Clarke's closest friend.

...Which is something of a shock considering he's never really been that for anyone before, but he knows it means he has to be the one to step in and do something to take her mind off of things. He doesn't think to text, it slips his mind completely that he should probably pre-arrange this with her or something. Instead he shows up unannounced, knocking pretty firmly on her door.

Spoilers, it's not room service. ]
unguard: (but for real ur dumb)

[personal profile] unguard 2015-02-21 01:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ Bellamy's eyes flicker over Clarke's face, her clothes, her hair, the way she carries herself. His lips purse together and turn down unhappily, and he announces: ]

You look terrible.

[ Rather than answering her question, he ops for a blunt observation. Which is pretty much what he expected anyway, and that's why he's here in the first place. With that established, he brushes past her to enter her room without an invitation. ]
unguard: (my displeasure)

[personal profile] unguard 2015-02-21 02:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ He looks around the room with keen interest, cataloguing Clarke's things, the way she has everything set up, then turns to face her again, hands settling on his hips. ]

You've been hiding out in here for days.

[ He informs her disapprovingly. ]

You've been doing nothing but... thinking. You need to get out, Clarke- out of your room and out of your head.
unguard: (the sassmaster)

[personal profile] unguard 2015-02-21 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
[ He frowns, considering their options, considering his answer, then starts toward the door again abruptly. ]

Come on. We're going out.

[ He declares, as though he's decided it without needing her permission. Accept it, Clarke, it's inevitable. ]
unguard: (my displeasure)

[personal profile] unguard 2015-02-21 04:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ He leads the way as he's wont to do, striding with swift confidence like he just knows she's going to follow.

...And then he realizes he's supposed to be a friend here and not a leader, so he purses his lips and slows down until they're walking side by side. ]


Drinking. We're going to get you wasted, princess, and you're gonna talk about your-

[ He waves vaguely. ]

Feelings, or whatever.
unguard: (eyes front soldier)

[personal profile] unguard 2015-02-21 07:50 am (UTC)(link)
Really.

[ He echoes her seriously, sparing her something of a surveying look. Gauging how well received the sentiment is, because admittedly while they've been good at being partners and leaders, they've always been a little awkward in the friends department.

But they are, aren't they?

He thinks so. He thinks Clarke might be his closest friend, and isn't that tragic? He leads them toward the end of the corridor, toward the bar on her floor. It's empty, abandoned, and he swings around the bar to grab a bottle of something that looks... brown, and not terrible. None of the labels are familiar to him, but it doesn't really matter anyway. He plucks up two glasses with the fingertips of his free hand, and snags them a booth in a private corner. Slides into one of the seats, and clunks a glass down in front of the booth opposite them.

Pours them each a hearty tumbler of whiskey. ]
unguard: (mistrust)

[personal profile] unguard 2015-02-22 08:58 am (UTC)(link)
[ It'll work, he knows it'll work. It's a tried and true coping strategy that has been passed down for generations, and it's pretty much the only way he knows how to reach out to Clarke and... help or her deal with everything. Once both glasses are full, he sets the bottle to the side and settles back into the booth.

Brings the glass to his lips, and takes a hearty swallow. Just to get things going.

There's a beat of quiet, contemplative silence, and then he starts in. ]


You've killed people before.

[ He comments, eyes flicking to her to gauge her reaction. ]

Mercy-killed. I've seen you do it more than once.
unguard: (leftly)

[personal profile] unguard 2015-02-23 03:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Different how?

[ He asks solemnly, even though he thinks he knows the answer. Finn was a friend, closer than Atom, closer than Charlotte. He thinks she might have loved him, though probably not in the way Finn loved her. Still, she's lost people before, close people. Her father, for starters, and that period of time where she thought Abby died on the dropship.

He doesn't see why she can't reconcile his death with the fact that it was a mercy killing, an end to an inevitable torture fest.

He doesn't see why she can possibly blame herself for this. ]
unguard: (chatter)

[personal profile] unguard 2015-02-27 04:16 am (UTC)(link)
[ Bellamy nudges her glass a little with a finger, pushing it toward her, indicating that she should drink. This conversation will go a lot more smoothly when she's a little more numb to it, and as if to prove his solidarity, takes a large drink himself. Whatever alcohol this is, it's a lot more smooth than Monty's moonshine, that's for damn sure. ]

Finn made his own decisions, you can't blame yourself for those.

[ He informs her flatly, leaving no room for protest. ]

He couldn't handle the pressure, he snapped, he made bad decisions. That's not on you, that's on him. The only person that should be blamed for Finn's death is Finn.
unguard: (every face looks the same to me now)

[personal profile] unguard 2015-02-28 09:23 am (UTC)(link)
[ His lips purse together unhappily as he unscrews the bottle's lid. Fills their glasses up again, because it's obvious he's going to have to just funnel alcohol into her to get anywhere. ]

Clarke, just because he was in love with you doesn't justify why he did what he did.

[ Bellamy would know, he's done some insane stuff on Octavia's behalf, but that doesn't make what he did right. He learned that the hard way. ]